Stuff and Things

Here's the deal: I'm not entirely certain what I want to do with this blog. I've been analyzing a lot, questioning motivations, and I keep hitting a brick wall. So many people blog in some way or another, mostly to hardly anyone about shit that most people aren't interested in. It's mostly an exercise in ego, putting one's opinions out there because so many other people are, and we're just as important as they are, right? We need to counteract their bullshit, right?

I'm finding it more difficult to care. The Taoist / Discordian aspects of "self" are coming back around again as prominent influences, after ~5 years of significant self-education and ~3 years of dedication to college. I've studied so much anthropology, sociology, psychology, philosophy, history and hard science that I've come back around to a better informed, more effective variation on who I was before. Kind of taking the position that ~2500 years of "Western" development have brought us to what the Taoists already figured out. I mean, shit, multiverse theory? Astrophysics these days is getting pretty intense, the geologic time scale makes the concerns of now seem absurd.

I'm finding it easier to laugh, though. Still find myself compelled to speak, rather frequently, but I can't think of much to say 'cause I don't see much point in it. I mostly just laugh at what happens, at what people say / do, at major events / developments.

Personally, I've gone three weeks without a cigarette, I graduate with my A.S. in social science this fall and plan to start on my B.A. in creative writing at ODU, I'm single for the first time in ~5 years, I've stopped drinking again (wasn't drinking much to begin with), and I'm looking for part time work. Everything is in flux, and I'm trying to get as much awesome out of that as possible. Listening to a lot of Einstürzende Neubauten lately, reading a lot more poetry (Rattle Magazine, Richard Siken, Anis Mojgani, Tony Brown).

So, yeah, there's all that. I'll be back around at some point or another, maybe with a better idea of what the hell I want to do with this space.